Wednesday, June 17, 2009

Just a speck of dust

I'm looking at my cat, sitting in a little ball on the floor. He's afraid of the storm. When the power went out, he ran around the room, looking for someplace to hide. I, on the other hand, opened the blinds just so I could watch the storm roll in, see the lightning, and feel the thunder. I suppose there's a certain fascination in watching a storm, but I'm not afraid. And why not? Do I feel invincible? Or just disconnected from the majesty of nature? I think it's the second. And I don't like that I've come to such a conclusion.

I'm not too good at living in the moment, at looking at the world around me and experiencing the present. Where's my awe for the dichotomy of violence and beauty in the natural world? Why am I not constantly aware of the immediacy of life, of being?

I hate to say it, but I'm reminded of the Lee Ann Womack song "I Hope You Dance":
I hope you never lose your sense of wonder
You get your fill to eat
But always keep that hunger
May you never take one single breath for granted
God forbid love ever leave you empty handed
I hope you still feel small
When you stand by the ocean

Whenever one door closes, I hope one more opens
Promise me you'll give faith a fighting chance...


Also, I really love Kimya Dawson's "I Like Giants." It reminds me of how microscopic, how tiny I am in comparison to life as a whole:
When I go for a drive I like to pull off to the side
Of the road, turn out the lights, get out and look up at the sky
And I do this to remind me that I'm really, really tiny
In the grand scheme of things and sometimes this terrifies me

But it's only really scary cause it makes me feel serene
In a way I never thought I'd be because I've never been
So grounded, and so humbled, and so one with everything
I am grounded, I am humbled, I am one with everything

Rock and roll is fun but if you ever hear someone
Say you are huge, look at the moon, look at the stars, look at the sun
Look at the ocean and the desert and the mountains and the sky
Say I am just a speck of dust inside a giant's eye
I am just a speck of dust inside a giant's eye


This included none of the requisite themes (God, tea, or a good book), at least not blatantly. But it's my attempt to write at least one blog entry each week and to make an observation about existence, even if such an observation is only beneficial to me.

Wednesday, June 10, 2009

God, clothed in human language

This blog is not a collection of random musings. But maybe it should be, maybe it would be more interesting that way. In this blog, I'm aiming to explore God, religion, and human belief or non-belief in either or both. I haven't posted in awhile because I've had trouble deciding what to write about, but the truth of it is that I see God everywhere. Or at least I see God or religion or a human attempt to describe such matters in everything, especially in the literature I read for my English classes or for pleasure.

In reading about St. Ephrem the Syrian for my summer research internship, I have discovered a new way to look at Christianity. Ephrem's metaphorical, devotional approach is refreshing coming from a lifelong familiarity with the Greek Church fathers, who are sometimes much more concerned with legalism than with actual connection with God. That's not to say that Ephrem, a voice of Eastern Orthodox or more simply Asian Christianity, was always poetic and never polemical, because in some cases he certainly was.

While I'm focusing on his Hymns on Paradise in my research, last week I read several introductions about Ephrem's life and his theological perspective. In particular, I found his 31st Hymn on Faith of interest. Academically, Ephrem is interesting because he is a theologian expressing his beliefs in poetry rather than prose. So to me, his convictions seem much less specific and more free-form, and this allows for personal interpretation of his metaphors, which is what I personally find intriguing about him.

So, this 31st Hymn on Faith employs some of Ephrem's favorite imagery, that of clothing and being clothed. In this hymn, God clothes himself in humanity's language in order to make it possible for it to understand Him. (Though Ephrem demands the impossibility of understanding God.)

1. Let us give thanks to God
who clothed Himself in the names of the body's various parts:
Scriptures refer to His "ears"
to teach us that He listens to us;
It speaks of His "eyes,"
to show that He sees us.
It was just the names of such things
that He put on,
and—although in His true being
there is no wrath or regret—
yet He put on these names
because of our weakness.

Response: Blessed is He who has appeared to our
human race under so many metaphors.

2. We should realize that,
had He not put on the names of such things,
it would not have been possible for Him
to speak with us humans.
By means of what belongs to us did He draw close to us:
He clothed himself in language,
so that He might clothe us
in His mode of life.
He asked for our form and put this on,
and then, as a father with his children,
He spoke with our childish state.

3. It is our metaphors that He put on—
though He did not literally do so;
He then took them off—without actually doing so:
when wearing them, He was at the same time stripped of them.
He puts on one when it is beneficial,
then strips it off in exchange for another;
the fact that He strips off
and puts on all sorts of metaphors
tell us that the metaphor
does not apply to His true Being:
because that Being is hidden,
He has depicted it by means of what is visible.

4. In one place He was like an Old Man
and the Ancient of Days,
then again, He became like a Hero,
a valiant Warrior.
For the purposes of judgment He was an Old Man,
but for conflict He was Valiant.
In one place He was delaying;
elsewhere, having run,
He became weary.
In one place, He was asleep,
in another, in need:
by every means did He weary Himself so as to gain us.

5. For this is the Good One,
who could have forced us to please Him,
without any trouble to Himself;
but instead He toiled by every means
so that we might act pleasingly to Him of our own free will,
that we might depict our beauty with the colors
that our own free will had gathered;
whereas, if He had adorned us,
then we would have resembled
a portrait that someone else had painted,
adorning it with his own colors.